How do you cope with stress? Do you have a technique on coping with stress? or do you feel you don’t have one and the only way to feel better is to power through the situation and finish dealing with the problem? I read somewhere stress is linked to high blood pressure, by causing your heart to beat faster and your blood vessels to narrow, which could dangerous (for my older readers).
I tend to be someone who gets easily stressed out, with a lot of things. I’m someone who forgets that I need to take breaks for me. Usually, i’m always moving around, looking for something to do, learn and experience. Almost always, I follow my impulse with an idea, but I tend to forget I’ll still working on my previous idea, and just add more things to do to my already over flowing plate. (It’s crazy)
I’ll show you an example: I mentioned I’m an actress, I audition a lot, maybe three times to five times a week (thank you theater gods), it’s rare for me not to have an audition (and I tend to get upset when I don’t have at least one during the week). I had begun to feel really lonely: when you go to an audition, it is basically like an interview, every single person is new (most of the time), which made me wonder about my purpose (Deep thinking, I know, bear with me). I kept wondering how come doing something I’ve been wanting to do, and I’m finally, professionally doing it, just like I wanted to, could make me feel empty and lonely, why? What more there is to it? Which brought me to creating this blog site.
Something I’ve always felt deep down is that my purpose is to inspire and motivate people into pursuing their passions, into love themselves and inspire folks into become who they want to be, which I felt I was doing it through my writing, since I wasn’t getting it through my acting. Additionally, I didn’t want to stop acting at all. It’s not only been my creative outlet but it’s also something I feel I have to do, for my sanity, and because I believe it chose me to pursue. One of the main reasons why I continue pursuing this (and hoping to succeed) is because I want to show that anybody can succeed, especially if they put their hearts and minds to it, which is what I am hoping to do once I make it.
While writing and creating this amazing blog, I started to feel the impostor syndrome. I felt I wasn’t experienced enough to write about inspiring you to become a better person, to pursue your passions and to do whatever makes you happy. I was ashamed I didn’t know enough or had enough experience to help people. I also felt my life was a complete mess, I felt (and sometimes still feel) like my life is not, at all, together. Meanwhile, I saw that almost all of the inspirational people I see, were super successful, and I was far from it, which prevented me to continue writing, so I enrolled back in school, to study psychology.
Choosing to go back to school wasn’t an easy decision though, I knew I loved learning, and expanding my mind. I am curious about the way people think and why they do what they do, which correlates with acting, so choosing this was both beneficial for this blog and my acting career.
Now, let’s go back to the purpose of this post, which was stress. I hadn’t realized that on my plate, I was (and still am) pursuing my acting career, which isn’t a simple task, plus blogging, and now going back to school. . . and to top it all off, I was working two jobs.
It’s been hectic, and I didn’t realize it.
To be continued…..
I’m an actress in pursuit of happiness and finding my truth. Through my writing I am able to release my thinking without being judged or having the need to impress people in this crazy world we’re living in. I hope that through my experience I inspire you to find your truth and version of happiness.