As a woman, I feel as though this is something I have to share and discuss from personal experience. I’ve come to the realization that a lot of small things usually make up feelings of we’re lacking something/don’t feel good enough for whatever small thing, could be from not being thin enough to feeling pretty enough or even not having enough friends.
I feel this pandemic ignited a lot of these feelings as we’re forced to slow down and take care of ourselves. Personally, I am always running around to the next audition or the next job, whether that’s artistically or regularly ( I juggle a lot as someone who has not reached her financial goal). Because of this pandemic, my usual routine of running everywhere stopped, and I had to rewire my brain into accepting the fact that I won’t be acting as much this year, or work on my regular restaurant job for that matter.
Although I’ve learned to adapt and manage how I’m going to spend my days, I still experience a lot of emotions during this time. Truthfully, I was not only scared but I was sad and felt absolutely lonely. I seriously felt bad, like I wasn’t good enough and like I lacked a lot of things, beauty, thinness, safety, I just felt completely wrong within, and it’s been painful…. if i’m completely being honest with you.
I’ve meditated and read self-development books, tried at home workouts and wrote my emotions down in a journal. Luckily these have helped a lot, and I felt sharing how I felt would hopefully give someone comfort, especially if you’re feeling the same.
This is also for me, this helped me share my feelings and also, hopefully, help you (and I) feel less alone.
I’m an actress in pursuit of happiness and finding my truth. Through my writing I am able to release my thinking without being judged or having the need to impress people in this crazy world we’re living in. I hope that through my experience I inspire you to find your truth and version of happiness.