I have a therapist.
I have been going to a therapist for a couple of months now. It began after my break-up and after I felt like I was losing control of myself and my life. A friend highly recommended it after I confessed to her everything I was going through, She thought it’d be very helpful and since I really appreciate her advice, I decided to give it a try.
Before going to see a therapist, I thought their purposes were for people who had issues, I mean, yes; we all have issues; but I specifically thought there had to be something really wrong with you mentally. Honestly, I thought having one was a little embarrassing, I thought it was wrong, that there actually WAS, in fact, something absolutely wrong with you.
But I was wrong.
I was terrified of going to one, I thought, “they’re totally going to think I’m nuts, they’re going to lock me up in a psyche ward, they’re going to dose me up with a bunch of pills and consider me clinically insane.” boy I was so wrong, haha I can laugh about it now; it’s crazy where your imagine can go. Anyway, I first went in for a consult and I was bawling because of how scared I was; I am someone who HATES talking about herself (ironically), and going into a room with the sole purpose of talking about what’s bothering me was just something I found hard to accept.
I literally went inside and I could sense the person’s main interest was me; I understand it’s something they’re paid to do, but I’ve never had anybody really pay attention to me, at least not like that! It made me realize I was struggling with a little more than what I thought I was dealing with, which is great because now I’m becoming a lot more self-aware and that’s good! I’m working toward developing myself into a better human being, someone I am more proud to be!
I am someone who doesn’t like taking medication, I believe they don’t solve the problem though I understand they can help a lot with certain medical problems. Immediately after my consult, I was diagnosed with anxiety and was immediately recommended to see someone who prescribes mental-health medications. I instantly declined for medication and I was relieved to have my response accepted by the staff, I realized it was all about me and what I wanted, not what they thought was necessary for their benefit.
After I finished my sessions, I always left feeling lighter than when I began them, I felt more in control and I felt like I knew myself a little better, which is the total opposite of what I thought would actually happen. I learned to not always jump into the negative side of the possible outcome as I don’t know what will happen in the future and I’m (slowly) but surely taking small risks even if I am not 100% certain of what will happen in the future.
Going to a therapist has helped me into making my own decisions, getting to know myself a little better and feeling better with the issues I am currently dealing with, my problems are not unique, they don’t define me, and certainly I am seeing them from the outside rather than from the inside. helped me become a little bit more brave, It’s helping me deal with my issues and not just hide in my shell, like I usually do, overall, going to therapy has been a gift in my journey.
I love going to therapy and I look forward to talking about what’s going on in my life, what I am dealing with and what I can do to not only feel better about myself but also to deal with what’s currently happening in my life; it’s been a wonderful experience and I really think it’s a great way to know yourself. We’re often told how to act through our friend’s point of view or a family member and when we don’t meet their standards of how we should be, often times we end up feeling not good enough, it’s like we’re constantly searching to meet an unreachable finish line.
With a therapist, not only am I allowed to be flawed, but I am also helped with what I want to fix with my life, their wisdom is very calming and very informative. I love talking to my therapist, she’s so wise, and funny and thinks exactly the way I do, which is extremely helpful when I try to express myself!
I honestly don’t know what I would be doing without my therapist, I highly recommend if you feel like you’re getting to the point where you need one.