This is the book I need when times are C-R-A-Z-Y.
It was so calming to read, a very enjoyable read, and I’m happy I got to read this right now, because I have been going crazy in my head this entire month of February. I feel like Shauna was the calming voice I needed to hear to let myself go, and calm down and listen to my intuitive voice to take it easy. (PS: I’ve never heard her voice before.)
Shauna was a people’s pleaser, always saying yes to doing other people’s favors, and a very hard worker, starting to work from the age of eleven, Shauna was always a woman who was on the go, a Type A Personality, and a control freak. Loved being responsible and being the one people went to with their problems so she could solve them. Her life was never about her, it was about her but also about solving other people’s problems. She threw up from anxiety of not meeting her deadlines and was always exhausted. Yelling at her kids misbehavior (which was really just spilling a cup of milk by accident.) and having issues with her marriage. She was so busy pleasing people from her work, traveling for speaking engagements, that she forgot to not only please herself, but her most immediate family, her husband and kids. By the time she was home from her business trips, she was too exhausted to even participate when her family needed her, she would, but she wanted it to end (which were the most precious moments.)
Everything outside of her family, she did so that everyone could see she was perfect, wanted to please them with everything they needed to they could believe she was, “perfect”, but eventually it ended up leaving her drained and unhappy, until she finally decided to let go and to say no to everyone else but herself.
Shauna found herself uneasy in stillness, angry when it was quiet and annoyed when she was finally going to play with her family. She considered people who enjoyed and played during their free time irresponsible, and found them a joke until eventually it made her sob, because she knew she used to have fun.
I loved this book so much. Coming from someone who suffers from anxiety, this book spoke to me, it’s given me permission to let go of the things that made me unhappy by showing-off to everyone else and instead to nurture my soul and relax; to let go of the need to meet society’s view of success and define success and happiness for myself without involving the whole world into my world. That needing to constantly do something everyday isn’t necessarily, and actually doing something isn’t great all the time, that it’s okay to, at least for a day, to just be, because it won’t hurt you, in fact, it will be good for you, to find some time in your life, some day, to be quiet, simple, and nurture your soul for you, without social media, people, just yourself.
Questioning whether I recommend this book or not isn’t even necessary. I recommend this book, because in a time where everyone is showing and doing and traveling and becoming about impressing everyone else. It’s good to be reminded that sometimes, disconnecting, and quietness and just being, is certainly a necessity in everyone’s life.