Choosing to Earn My Bachelors in Psychology.

I’m terrified of this decision, I decided to go back to school, and earn my bachelors, and for some reason I don’t understand why, the thought of going is so scary to me. The thought just randomly came up in my head, and I applied to a couple of schools for the hell of it ( I didn’t really made it a big deal) and now my first choice accepted me, I was surprised, but the first thing that built up was a fear in my chest. This is what’s going through my head: I want to be an actress, become a film actress and walk down the red carpet, but my fear with going back to school is that I won’t have time to pursue my dreams fully.

I don’t understand why this is happening so I’ve decided to write about it.

I value education 100% and I believe it’s the first step to pursuing the dreams you want to live, educating yourself in your passion. I’ve always wanted to educate myself in whatever I was interested in, Recently I’ve had it in my head that I wanted to study psychology for my writing purposes, and understanding more how the brain works is also great for my acting skills as well.

But i’m having a difficult time understanding why is it that I have this wall up in my chest? I can feel something holding me back. It feels as though if I go ahead and study psychology, I’d lose my artistic title, and I don’t want to ever let go of the thing that made me who I am, of who I have become.

I have known I wanted to become an actress professionally since I was sixteen, I studied the acting technique I wanted to, I graduated and signed with a wonderful manager, I have struggled and have become a strong human being because of acting, I have matured and have found myself because of acting, I had stayed out of trouble and have continued to grow because of acting. Acting has been my defining word, my life, both my sadness and happiness and I was never interested in something else or have done anything else until now and it’s scary, as if I am going away from who I am.

for me, It’s not about the diploma itself, it’s about learning, growing into the person I want to become, there are many successful people that value education as a way to get to success and I am one of those people. The other day I was listening to a motivational podcast and this is what I heard:

I feel like deep within me, I know what I have to do for my best interest, for my future.

Time will only tell.


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I’m an actress in pursuit of happiness and finding my truth. Through my writing I am able to release my thinking without being judged or having the need to impress people in this crazy world we’re living in. I hope that through my experience I inspire you to find your truth and version of happiness.

2 Comments Leave a comment

  1. Hey!
    So i totally get the conflict your having. You sound like your very creative and i assure you, there is plenty of room for creativity to be set free in the field of Psych. Absolutely pursue your theater if that is what drives you, learning a little bit aboute the psyche will give you a huge advatage in the industry – help you with costars and directors!

    When i was in high school I was always in chorus / theater. But senior year I took my first gen ed. Psych class and i loved it.
    I just finished my B.A. in Psychology just over a year ago from local state university and I can say it was the best decision. The types of classes you have the opportunities to take…the things you can learn, not only about your self, but about others and how we all end up connecting together. And usually, there are a variety of classes availible to fill a certain credit so you can prefer classes that suit your interest!

    I wish you all the best!

    With love,
    Laura Rose

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    • Wow! Thank you for this, I really appreciate it.
      This certainly helps me a lot in deciding for myself on wether I should go or not.
      Thank you for sharing your story
      You’re wonderful xoxoxoxoxoxoxo


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