I’m alone a lot of the time of my days, I enjoy my alone time. I find myself unable to relate to most of my generation and I don’t find any interest in what they like (except artists, we’re a small relatable group..I believe.)
Because I’m constantly alone, I have to have a lot of care for my mental health, I am surrounded by people that I am unable to relate to, and most of the time, that makes me feel very lonely.
it makes me feel like I don’t have a place in the world and it’d be alright if I’m not there.
Ignorant people tell me it’s wrong to be individually different are some of the things I hear sometimes, but it isn’t like I try to be different on purpose, I just am authentic to myself, and even if I wasn’t, I’d still stand out.
These are the people that I try to stay away from, they make me feel like who I am and what I do is wrong, they make me feel ashamed of myself and am wrong to the universe, even if they’re joking, sometimes jokes hold truth to themselves. That’s why I try to stay alone most of the time, because being alone is better than being surrounded by a group of mean people.
It’s okay that I spend a lot of my time alone, because I don’t have to hide behind a wall, I never have to pretend or show off to someone else. I feel like people in crowds do more of a disservice to who they are than being alone, the disservice is so big, they don’t know how to be alone, they don’t even who they are.
When you find yourself incredibly lonely while being surrounded by people who you think should be surrounding you with love instead of hate, this is when you have to be selfish with your happiness and disconnect yourself from people who make you feel wrong, or if they give you that negative vibe, also try to keep your distance.
When you start feeling negative vibes toward people you’ve been surrounded by for a while, try to listen to your gut, I’ve learned from experience that they’re never wrong.
Ending a friendship or a relationship for your well being is worth more than keeping friends and partners that make you feel any less than you should.
you’re an amazing soul, and nobody should make you feel any less, stay strong and be bold enough to stand up to anybody that brings your energy down.
Love yourself, no matter the cause.
I’m an actress in pursuit of happiness and finding my truth. Through my writing I am able to release my thinking without being judged or having the need to impress people in this crazy world we’re living in. I hope that through my experience I inspire you to find your truth and version of happiness.