The Downside of Pretentious People.

When I encounter someone that’s pretentious, I’m always left wondering why that particular person is the way they are, what made them behave in such a way?
Frankly, I always wonder why people are they way they are.
Except nice people, you guys are awesome!
I always feel like they’re full of so much insecurities, and they hide behind make-up and material things.
They literally just pretend that their life is great, they only take pictures when they look great, they brag when everything is great but hide and disappear when everything is not great.
I don’t know how you guys do it! The thought of just being fake to someone else, to make my life look like is so wonderful, feels like a disservice to myself, like I’m hurting who I am in some way.
Plus it’s so much work! Holy hell! that’s another fitness schedule added to the one you already have! Difference is this one won’t benefit your health.
I’m wary of materialistic people, I feel like they hide behind their brand clothing and expensive jewelry. I was never one to be into brand-wear, and I’ve tried to empathize but I only feel nothing but sympathy.
I also find it a total turn off when someone values high priced items and shows them off on instagram than a simple conversation, it’s a bit empty to me.
I was the one that was afraid of having someone dislike me, terrified of being embarrassed for not being pretty enough, I had to lie and keep on lying for the other person’s approval of my worthiness.
One time, I wanted a guy to like me so bad, I thought he was the hottest bad-boy, everything he wore was nice (or so I thought); we were alone one time (I had bangs at the time), and he lifted my bangs to check my acne to see if I was worthy of dating him.
That sucked! I felt ashamed of myself, of my acne, it was terrible! I felt like I had to apologize for being flawed! As if that was a bad thing.
I never ended dating him, and I’m glad I didn’t, I realize now, he was just small minded and was only interested in the basic good looks.
I felt like I had to double my efforts for him when I honestly already felt shitty about not being pretty enough FOR him.
I realized it was just too much work for somebody that didn’t even matter, that was a complete disservice to myself, my heart, my soul, my true being.
“I sincerely apologize to myself for putting my beautiful being in a situation that wasn’t healthy for my soul.”
That’s why I am constantly working towards staying true to myself, even if someone disapproves of it, letting go of material things, or brand wear, because at the end of the day, who are they to push their ego into my being? Who are they to decide what is cool and what isn’t? Because everyone else is doing it? In my eyes, that just makes you look like everyone else, it doesn’t make you any better than me.
Your value is in who you are, not in what you have, you were born with nothing, and you leave what you have behind, you might as well face yourself, raw, and break free of what has you trapped behind everyone else and start your own free path.
In the end, you’re the one that will be rewarded.

Above all, avoid falsehood, every kind of falsehood, especially falseness to yourself” Fyodor Dostoyevsky



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I’m an actress in pursuit of happiness and finding my truth. Through my writing I am able to release my thinking without being judged or having the need to impress people in this crazy world we’re living in. I hope that through my experience I inspire you to find your truth and version of happiness.

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  1. 👏👏👏 well written.. I totally agree with you! You have brought forth an incredibly true perspective!! It is best for us to be true to ourselves.. we can not cheat ourselves and should never!!!👏👏 Thank you for sharing!☺️☺️

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