My friends, I feel very lucky to be writing this blog post and pursuing my dreams as an actress; and finally, after what felt like a long time, I am surrounded by friends that genuinely love and support me. I am lucky to be alive.
How did this happen you might ask? Or not… whatever, I’ll tell you anyway:
I. Stopped. Worrying. About. What. People. Thought. About. Me.
For someone who worries about that, I understand it might be tough, because you want to follow the norm. You want to be liked and fit in. You want people to see how cool you are and you believe that by getting their approval, it will make you happy.
But it will not, I promise you.
It will not make you happy because you’re not satisfying your needs, your worrying about making someone else happy, you’re worrying about their opinion of you, and you believe that it’s gonna ruin your life if you don’t fit in and aren’t liked by everyone in the crew
I believe you experience this all the time, “What’s in style today? What is everyone wearing? What is everyone doing? Oh, everyone has Instagram? I will too!” Literally, everyone wants to be included in everything.
I experience this everyday.
Not the part of me changing my behavior for someone else, but the part of someone making a face or having judgmental eyes because what you did or said isn’t what they would agree with. They think you’re weird (I believe there’s nothing wrong with that, but some people still think that being weird is a bad thing.)
This is for you, judgmental person, why can’t you just accept that people are not like you, why can’t you just agree to disagree? Why do you be to an ignorant SOB? (Excuse my language, or not.) I strongly dislike people like you.
There’s no clear path to success, but the clear path to failure is trying to be like everyone else.
I used to worry a lot about what other people thought about me, I always changed my behavior for them, I always worried about making them happy, and I was dissatisfied. I still felt like I didn’t fit in, I was ALWAYS UNHAPPY, it was not a good time in my life.
But then I stopped.Well…. I think the universe kicked me really hard in the head and yelled, “stop living someone’s else’s life! You have only yours to live.” And it shook my core completely, I disconnected, I disappeared. I recharged myself, my soul, and my body.
It was the best scream I’ve had…Ever!
The moment I stopped worrying about what someone else thought about me, I felt like I started living! I now feel alive, open, free, I feel happy! And right now? Nobody can take that away from me.
Nobody can influence me or affect me, because I am leading my ship, and if you want a ride? Let’s agree to disagree and embrace each other’s differences.
We’re on our way to being each other’s best friends!
There’s a quote I read somewhere, “Poor is the man whose pleasures depend on the permission of another.”I don’t pity you, but I understand you, because I was in that position once in my life and I was that poor man once.
Everyone is going to find an excuse to dislike you regardless of the type of person you are, you might as well stop trying to make them happy and start making yourself happy.
I’m an actress in pursuit of happiness and finding my truth. Through my writing I am able to release my thinking without being judged or having the need to impress people in this crazy world we’re living in. I hope that through my experience I inspire you to find your truth and version of happiness.